Saturday, February 05, 2011
it's the 3rd day of the ordeal.
(i think it's the 3rd, or mebbe it's 2nd? anw)
im in my utmost state of denial right now.
there are certain things that i dont share and wont share i guess,prolly.
like like nobody should know how im feeling.
so in a way, when you suddenly break down and cry, the crying just keeps on going cos
the "stone" at the back of your throat will just force it's way down and it will keep re-building.
which makes matters even worse.
and i cant believe that you actually have to be the first person ever to witness that.
graah. awful awful.
i think alot of things you said tonight were true.
and i am just running away from them, not accepting the facts, the truth.
everything's in a mess now.
mind's in a whirlwind.
i didnt see any of this coming at all.